Quarter-life Crisis...eh? is there such thing?

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

YAAAAY! My final exam was last Wednesday and I can finally say that I will be a student no more.  I have a mixed feelings about this, on one hand I am happy because it means I don't have to study anymore! I don't have to worry about assignments deadlines, don't have to stay up late to try to finish assignments on time or trying to remember stuff for the exam that I won't even need in my future career, EVER. But on the other hand I am also sad that finally my student years have gone past. I will be turning 25 in a few days and I feel like I AM NOT READY to be an adult.

I feel like once you finish your study, we are expected to find a good decent job that pays well and be independent and get our s**t together. I have to be ready to embark on a new journey in my life, being an independent young woman. BUT seriously, NO! What if I don't want to be old? What if I want to be forever 21 like that big fashion giant? LOL.

I still want to take a gap year and travel wherever I want and worry about my future later on. I am not ready to take my life seriously even though I know I should and my parents would be very sad if I don't.

Whenever I go to my Facebook feed, all I can see is A is having a baby, B is getting married, C is engaged now... These things enter my mind and make me worried sometimes. Why am I different? Why I am not ready to settle down and have a baby? Am I being immature or am I just a late bloomer?

Yesterday when I told my colleague that I will be turning 25 this Friday, they said 'Oh Lucky you! you are still young!' I guess it depends on how you look at things. For my colleagues who are on their 30s, they think that I am still young, but for me looking at younger teenagers, I feel like I am a zombie coming from the 90s. haha...

Oh well, SUCH IS LIFE. This is what we call Life. Realisation that everything will have to end eventually, no matter how good or bad it is. Your baby face will turn into a more mature face with a slight wrinkle at the tip of your eyes. Your stamina will decrease as you get older. You can't drink 10 shots without getting tipsy like in your early 20s. People will look at you funny if you still wear tiny mini short revealing your butt-cheek when you are in your 30s.

Realising that life is short and every second that we have is valuable as we won't be able to go back in time, we need to enjoy life to the fullest. What's important is to trust your gut and be happy.
You can NEVER please everyone in life no matter what you do. So why don't you choose to live the life the way you like it? Don't listen to what everybody says, we all are different and things will always fall into place when the time is right.

Time goes really quickly, before I know it, I will be on my 30s. So I am not gonna try to stress out so much about things that I can't control (like my age or how quickly I get wrinkles, kidding!) and to enjoy every moment of it. I am still young (according to some people) and I will not take everyday for granted. I am still learning from my mistakes too.

For those who just graduated from high school, let me give you tips. Don't take life seriously, you are only young ONCE! Go travel, try and explore new things, meet lots of new friends along the way but be responsible at the same time. There will be times when you make wrong decisions, But fret not! We all make mistakes and the best thing in life is that we can learn from those mistakes to make us stronger and tougher. Enjoy every moment you have with your friends and loved ones because as you grow older, it can be harder to make times for them.

Alrighty... I will see you all on my next post, trust me it won't be as depressing as this one... lol